To Everything There Is a Season...
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance...as the lyrics go.
The song, "Turn! Turn! Turn! (to Everything There is a Season)" as sung by the Byrds, taken from the Book of Ecclesiastes, seems to have defined the last few weeks. So many changes...
I will be returning to work full time in a few weeks. I am excited to start another chapter in my professional life. I am also scared to be without my sidekick for several hours each day. I am looking forward to putting back on my suits and being a different-kind-of productive. I am sad I won't be putting on my workout gear and seeing smiles, eye-rolling, red faces...from you all.
I hope to continue teaching Stroller Strides on a substitute basis because Stroller Strides has been an incredible influence on my daughter. I remember when she first started humming Baa Baa Black Sheep. Then, out of nowhere, she did a push-up one day. Then, she started singing the words to the songs we sing in class. Then, one day, she counted to 20. Just the other day, she said, "Hear Apple Tree song." (Way up high in the apple tree, 5 little apples winked at me...c'mon, you know this one!)
Has Fit4Mom/Stroller Strides been an integral part of my daughter's life? YES! Has Fit4Mom/ Stroller Strides been an integral party of my life? YES...
I've made some awesome friends through Stroller Strides, and those friendships have never been more important than this week.* My husband and I were pregnant for a very brief moment. Last week, I found out there was no heartbeat. Later in the week, I had a miscarriage. I'm so thankful to be able to reach out to my friends and let them in on a secret so many women have, and for some reason never talk about.
I kept my fertility issues a secret for a long time, until I met some ladies early on in Stroller Strides who were very open about how many years it took to get pregnant, or how many times they went through IUI/IVF/I-whatever-the-latest-technology-is. It was then, that I realized I had nothing to hide. I shared that my daughter was a miracle given the single-digit chance I had of conceiving naturally and the three failed attempts at IVF (she was conceived naturally during a weekend getaway after a few beers...oh, and pending date to begin donor egg IVF; is that all we needed to do to make a baby???). My point is, that I find it awesome to be around so many open, honest women, many of whom understand firsthand what it was like to have less-than-cooperative reproductive systems!
To those who think Stroller Strides is nothing more than an exercise class, read this blog entry again. To those who think Stroller Strides is nothing more than a group of women walking down the street pushing their babies, well, you never attended one of our classes, have you?! ;)
I'm not a fan of cliches, but it really does take a Village.
Bottom line, I will miss attending and teaching class on a regular basis. But, I am thrilled and honored to have met each and every one of you.
"A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak..."
*And, to my pre-Fit4Mom/Stroller Strides friend, A.S., I can't even begin to thank you enough for your strength and support.